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Tuesday, May 27, 2003
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Ok, I know. New photography has not made it's way here yet. I've got a ton of negatives to scan, rest assured. I would have done it sooner, but didn't bother since I had no way to post the pictures over the weekend. I have been living with very limited internet access since early Saturday, which I finally resolved today after 3 separate phone calls with the helpful people at MSN's tech support. They actually were helpful! I was pleasantly suprised. Those pix are coming soon. :) Monday, May 19, 2003
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I'm frustrated. I'm working on the physical cleaning up of my life, but it seems that the more I do that, the more the mental part is suffering. I feel like I'm underwater. I see all of this good stuff coming up on the surface, and I'm so close to reaching it... but then I lose my momentum and slip back a little deeper... I just want to break free and take a breath already! I haven't forgotten about the pix... hopefully I'll have time to upload some tonight. :) Friday, May 16, 2003
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I'm working on my plan. It's amazing how much better you can feel when you have everything you want to accomplish in front of you in black and white. I made myself a "to do" list, and suddenly things don't feel so bad. I can (and will) do this. Thursday, May 15, 2003
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I'm busy here taking stock of my life. It's a good thing to do now and again... and I've realized that I am in dire need of some good spring cleaning. I mean this both literally - as my apartment looks like a natural disaster has struck - and figuratively. I need to do a clean out within myself. When did I stop caring so much? When did I let myself go? I'm too young for this! It's been getting to me slowly over the last week or two, but really hit me like a ton of bricks over the last three days. I have almost no work clothes that fit me properly. I completely stopped ever wearing makeup at some point. I stopped wearing jewelry. I go to work every day, in a professional office none the less, with my face scrubbed clean and my hair pulled up into a ponytail. My nails are bitten down to stubs. I don't recognize myself. I've never been too much of a girly-girl, but I've never thought I'd gone this far to the extreme. I'm too young for this! So, I have a plan. I'm giving myself 30 days. I will clean out my apartment, clean out myself, and clean out my life - physically, mentally, emotionally. All of it. When I'm done I don't just want to recognize myself. I want to be someone I can live with. Wednesday, May 14, 2003
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Want to see something funny? Check out this joke somebody e-mailed me. Yeah, it's just a little bit mean... that's just the mood I'm in today. Tuesday, May 13, 2003
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Just popping in to test out the functionality of the archives... I hate it when my links don't go anywhere! Hopefully this will fix the problem. :) Sunday, May 11, 2003
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Sometimes all it takes is a good slap in the face from where I started off to show me how far I've really come. Saturday, May 10, 2003
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A few more pictures posted over the past few hours... a few more links. I've got more negatives to scan, so expect me to update the pics within the next week. Enjoy. :) Friday, May 09, 2003
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It's been a strange day... a strange week, acutally. Let me tell you... I feel like I should be saying something. There are words on the tip of my tongue, words on the tips of my fingers, but they just don't want to come out. My mind is as cloudy as the sky was this morning. Let me tell you... it poured. I feel blocked, muddled... I feel something that doesn't have words to describe it. I want to scream out... to break out of this box I feel trapped inside. There's got to be something more for me, something beyond my line of sight that I've never even dreamed or imagined. There's got to be something for me to find when I get out there, into the world beyond my own.
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Anticipation is a funny thing... Do you ever get the feeling that something around you is about to change, but you're not sure what? You're not sure whether the immediate implications will be good or bad? But it's a good feeling that something is about to happen? Thursday, May 08, 2003
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I live in a world where I hear and know too much. It would be so nice to just turn the world off for a while...
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Well, I've just added a links page. You can view it here or you can click over on the right. It's only got a few things (mosty BtVS fanfiction sites) now, but will be ever expanding. :)
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I hate wet and cloudy mornings... when the sky is just threatening to open up. I always want to roll back over in bed and go back to spleep on days like this. Still working on those links. I'm starting to get very annoyed with Fortunecity. It didn't want to let me upload images again last night. Wednesday, May 07, 2003
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The pains of trying to be good on a diet... oh I'm sorry, "lifestyle plan." It can be difficult now, even though I've been doing this for just over 9 months. The girl sitting next to me at work just made a bag of buttered popcorn, and it smells so good! She's making me hungry!!! If only I wasn't planning a huge dinner tonight, I'd go have some popcorn too...
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Hi! I'm currently putting together a list of links. Nifty places that I like to visit. Hopefully it will be ready by tomorrow. More pictures on the way too! This is proving to be a fun experiment... Tuesday, May 06, 2003
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It works! It works! It works!!!!! I've finally gotten my photography page started, and the thing actually works!!!!! You can check it out here or you can click the link to the right. That works too!!!!!! Please be sure to check back, as I plan to update it often! (Can you tell I'm bouncing around like mad?)
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I think I'm just having one of those bang your head against the wall in frustration sort of days. I come home, sit down to peacefully upload photos to my site and I can't get the files to load to Fortunecity. Argh! I know it's probably a matter of waiting for a while and coming back to try it again, but it's so annoying!
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Anywhere but here... I'm stuck at work, and I'm bored, and there's only an hour left. When you're bored, an hour can feel like an eternity. Yuck. Anyway, wishing I was at home, or at least had access to my scanner and my negatives. I'm really eager to get a site together with my pictures! It's driving me insane that I have the time, but I can't be working on it right at the moment.
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This is just like me. Yesterday when I set this up, I was bubbling over with thoughts and ideas. Big grand plans for my website, you know. Then as soon as I attempt to type something smart and witty, my mind goes completely blank! Why does this always seem to happen? Monday, May 05, 2003
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Welcome to my new space. You'll soon see links to my photography (among other things), and a good bit of babble. |